Weight Loss Update

I know, I know it's been awhile! I went back to work on October 21st and I'm working 30 hour weeks so I have two days off with Finn - I work 7-5 on Monday, 7-4 on Tuesday, 9-1 on Thursday (Finn comes with me!) and 9-4 on Friday. I've been slacking on blogging but I keep up my instagram since it's much quicker so follow me there!

Next is my weight loss update and I am right on target which is pretty awesome! I have to admit that I haven't gone back to the gym yet since I can bare to be away from Finn especially with just going back to work. But I have decided that for my sanity I have to so I am starting back at the gym in a week. I'm only going to start out at three days a week but I think that's pretty good for a new mom.

I have to say that the transformation my body has gone through post pregnancy is really hard for me. I knew it would take some time for the weight to come off and that my body wouldn't look the same but it is much harder for me than I imagined. I have never been overweight and even when I thought I was "fat," I was never really that soft. The hardest part for me has been how saggy my stomach is now. Basically all of my weight gain with Finn was in my stomach so now the extra skin (although not a lot, just a lot for me) is there and my muscles are not so it's just weird to me to see it like that. I also made the mistake of trying on my old size 2 jeans and none of my jeans have any real stretch to them, they are very tailored so needless to say I was sorely disappointed when they didn't fit at all. I did go to Gap and bought two pairs of size 6 jeans which fit perfectly and are already a little loose (I even put them in the dryer the last time I washed them) since I know I have to at least loose all of the weight before I can try my size 2 on again.

I'm consistently loosing almost a pound a week still mostly because Finn eats a ton (every 1.5-2 hours) and I'm honestly not very hungry anymore. I thought I would be more hungry nursing than when I was pregnant but I'm less hungry than even pre-pregnancy and I have to force myself to eat during the day. For most women this wouldn't be a problem but with my past food issues I have to make sure I eat as I don't want to go back to restricting and having a bad relationship with food in general.

Ok, so enough talking - here are my newly updated pics and results, along with my measurement update!
(top: current 13 weeks postpartum; middle: 5 weeks postpartum; bottom: 3 weeks postpartum)

41 weeks pregnant = 185

8/21 weight = 160

9/6 weight = 156.6

9/20 = 154.2

11/1 = 147 

Weight Loss in six weeks = 7.2lbs

Total Weight loss = 13lbs

Weight Loss to go = 12lbs

Goals:

9/30 = 155 MET

10/12 = 150 MET

11/21 = 145

1/31 = 140

3/31 = 135

Goal Measurements by 4/24 = These are all my pre-pregnancy measurements except for my bust
Bust = 36in (still nursing)
Waist = 25in
Hips = 36in
Starting measurements 9/22=
Thighs = 21in
Bust = 38in [2in to go]
Waist = 30in [5in to go]
Hips = 41in [5into go]
L Thigh = 23in [2in to go]
R Thigh = 23in [2in to go]
Measurements 10/30 =
Bust = 36in GOAL MET [although this measurement changes depending on the last time Finn nursed!]
Waist = 29in [4in to go]
Hips = 39 [3in to go]
L Thigh = 22in [1in to go]
R Thigh = 22in [1in to go]

I hope that once I begin to workout these numbers will go down much quicker, but this isn't bad for purely weight loss inches lost.

Mom-To-Be Worries

I'm sure every new mom has many worries about, well, being a mom. Don't get me wrong I am a little worried I will completely screw our little man up somehow but honestly I've always had motherly instincts and feel that I will know what to do when the time comes. Right now my biggest worry is about my relationship with Tom. We decided to go to Boston on a whim a few weekends ago and had so much fun together, we always do, but as we were laying in bed all I could think was that next time we go to Boston [ most likely not on a whim ] we will have a baby, or maybe two by the time we get there again. I'm worried we'll both be so wrapped up in the baby and kids that we'll forget about each other and not connect like we use to. It's been just the two of us for almost 9 years its kind of hard to imagine it any different. We are obviously both beyond thrilled to be having this baby and want a big family but it's change, it's good change, but change nonetheless. 

Climbed a mountain, drank a beer at the top :)

We know that having a baby will change our lives and what we do - like going to Boston on a whim - but just like my parents did with me, we plan on taking this baby everywhere with us - out to dinner like normal, to the grocery store, TJMaxx [ it's the only store anywhere near us haha ], to visit our parents as often as normal, to visit our friends in Maine, and anywhere else we want to go.

On our honeymoon!

I know we will both love this baby more than we could ever imagine loving each other so I worry about us loosing sight of one another or that I'm going to get so wrapped up in the baby that Tom feels like I've forgotten about him. We know date nights are important, but with no family around that will be hard once the baby is born and we've already decided that we don't want to leave the baby with a sitter - even our parents for the first year since that is when bonding is the most important. We do have a wedding to go to in October in NJ so my parents are coming with us and will watch the baby when we are at the reception so weddings are really the only exception to our first year rule.

At a VT brewery two years ago for Tom's 25th birthday. I surprised him with a brewery tour to 6 different breweries around VT and a night in Burlington.

Is it normal to have this worry? Or am I just not as good with change as I thought I was? Maybe this whole idea sounds crazy to most, and I know deep down Tom and I will be fine and I'm really worrying over nothing, we've made it through a lot over the last 9 years, but baby makes three and it has only been two for a very long time!